My feelings for coronavirus is not stable at all. When I first heard about it on Youtube, I heard it kills people in twenty-four hours, I thought it was something like a horror movie, I was scared. I thought it was only in China, I didn’t believe it could spread this much. After it spread to Turkey, I started not going out at all. I stayed in my room all day. I started to cry because my dad has lung disease. I thought he would die for sure. Even though my dad and I stay at home every day, my mom has to go to work, so I cried for that too. I didn’t care about my eating, my homework, or anything. I stayed in my room all day and watched movies or scrolled down on social media. Now I’m better. I started to draw even though I’m more of a musical person. I started to get my body moving and started to eat healthily. I watched my favorite cartoon Winx and it made me laugh. I like talking with my family more than ever now. The weather started to get nicer so I felt like it was summer and everything is better again. I’m hoping to be able to read books again very soon now.
Even though I’m much better psychologically, I’m still so mad at the government about how it handles the situation. I really thought and hoped they would announce lockdown. I talked with my friend from Argentina. He said they had one thousand cases and they were in lockdown. We have much more cases than that, I don’t even know how much now, I stopped checking it, but we are not in lockdown. Our government can’t announce lockdown because we don’t have a good economy. They can’t give people money while they are at their home. Schools, cafes, and shopping centers are closed, people over the age of sixty-five and people who are under the age of twenty are forbidden to go out but people still can go to work. Instead of helping its citizens and giving them money, the government enables companies to apply unpaid vacation. For example, one week my mom works and the other week she doesn’t. They take turns in the work. The weeks she doesn’t work counts as a vacation. She has a three-weeks vacation right in a year, but she has to count one week of not going to work due to coronavirus as a vacation. After some time, her rights of vacation will run out and she will have to work without receiving any money. There are lots of people who are aggrieved right now and we’re one of them. Unless you have lots of money, you are aggrieved. At least we are middle class, but there are lots of people who have to work without any money right now. The government gives them a thousand liras I guess, but money in Turkey has no value. Also, in lots of families in Turkey, only men work. So there is only one source of income. A family with five children might be receiving only a thousand liras which, again, doesn’t have a value in Turkey. No one can criticize this situation. The tv channels which are criticizing this situation like Fox are getting punished. I guess Fox received four days of punishment. That’s what I read in the newspaper. No one can speak their mind. I try to handle the situation but the government makes me feel helpless.