Today is Monday, October 5th, 2020. Covids been going on for a while now and it’s almost as if Americans have forgotten how serious it is. While of course online people are still somewhat freaking out, I currently reside in Orland Hills and the lack of social distancing and mask wearing is frightening. I work from home now and I attend DePaul University online. It’s been tough getting used to such isolation is hard, I’m starting to garden more though. My plants are doing fine. My grandma who comes every week, despite my wishes she stays home and safe, loves the plants. My grandpa is in the hospital right now after he got an infection from a botched surgery. No one is allowed to see him in fears that covid will get to him. I’ve had a couple of covid scares these past few months. The knowledge that I might actually kill a loved one scares me. Living through a pandemic is weird. I’ve read about multiple other pandemics but to live through one is an experience, not a fun one. I’m reading the monster at our door by mike Davis. Drawing parallels between covid and the avian flu is horrifying. The disenfranchised really are the ones suffering. Black and brown folks are facing the worst here in Chicago. Whether it’s unemployment, eviction, or the actual virus. I pray for us. Dissociating from what’s happening helps sometimes, that’s what I believe most Americans do. We’re not used to stuff like this, I guess. But at some point, we need to stop dissociating and face it. Anyways that’s a Monday morning for me.